Quiet Cora, is there such a thing?

Morning all my beautiful SWSYD ladies :)

I know i have been quiet lately and there is a reason for this. I feel like i should tell you all as i know i'm usually beaming with positive energy on our facebook page.
I have had alot of problems which started about a year ago. I started to get pins & needles all over my body, electric shocks, numbness in my face, hands & feet also i always feel like i have walked through a cob web constantly, this feeling never goes away, and sometimes i'm spotted swatting my face like a crazy woman!
So with this all in mind i went to see my doc, as you do when this kind of thing happeneds.

So i told the doc what was going on, got sent to get an MRI scan and off to see a neurologist. MRI of the spine came back clear, but what was causing all these weird symptoms? Psychosomatic the neuro tells me?

What does that mean i asked? basically all in my head he says...... i was shocked to say the least. I walked out of his room balling my eyes out and never spoke again of my symptoms until now.

Things have been getting worse over the year, one example, was driving down Raby road, when i went to put my foot on the break and i couldn't move my foot to do it! no feeling in my right foot at all and i nearly went up the ass of a driver :S yep! all in my head.

fast foward to the last 2 months things have been getting worse and worse, i now have muscle spasms all over my face that won't go away, so as i'm talking to someone it feels like my whole face is twitching and i can't have a real convo as i think they can see it :(

I went to my new wonderful doc 2 months back and told her about some of my symptoms and she said if it's not better in 2 months come back and see me Cora.

Well yesterday was 2 months on and i'm not really getting any better so i wrote down my list of symptoms and off i went to the doc's a bundle of nerves.

Here is my list that i have been keeping with me for the past year, nobody new about this not even Daniel, i'm a VERY good actor at keeping people thinking i'm on top of the world when really, i'm crumbing inside.

- Right foot going numb while driving couldn't feel the peddle.
- Sometimes while walking legs would give out under me with me falling to the ground.
-tingling/numbness/electric shocks/ pins and needled all throughout my body.
- weak at limbs
-slurred speech ( work pulled me up on this the other day)
- bladder problems going more than 30 times a day says it all remember i work in a call centre i'm on the phones all day, try explaining that to your boss.
- Fatigue, even after 9 hours sleep i feel like i haven't slept a wink.
- memory loss, now this i have had for a very long time and have never ever told anyone about this till yesterday. I forget if i have taken a tablet, i have to write everything down or i won't remember.
- muscle spasms in my face
- spider web feeling constantly in my face
- Urinary retention. and frequency
- walking into walls.

So, i showed the doc this, and she said, Cora there is much more going on than what the last doctors wanted to believe and we need to get to the bottom of this. I just started to cry, thanking her for believing me!!! i told her what the other doc said and she just laughed and said he just didn't want to deal with this.

So i'm having a bunch of tests done, getting a new neuro and going from here. so ladies i'm still here just quiet as i have alot going on atm and just don't feel like chatting much. I will support you all as much as i can, doing the 12wbt is helping me through this as i have something else to keep me busy :)

So ladies, keep up the fitness, i will be smashing it out with Danielle at Aquafit if you all want to join us, i know this isn't 12wbt post but thought i had to let you all know. Keep strong xxxxxx
   

Task 4# SAY IT OUT LOUD!!!!!!!! Here is goes people, i'm putting this out to everyone I'm Committed!!!
My commitment is To lost the last 2 kilo’s and keep it off
My commitment is To start training harder
My commitment is sticking to my nutrition plan
My commitment is to do Fun runs, Tough block challenge, Mud run etc.
My commitment is to be the best me possible
My commitment is To be a fit and happy mum
I commit to myself, to Michelle, to husband and my Son and to my SWSWBT crew
My commitment is to not let old habits control me.
Don’t EVER give up Cora!!!!!

Task 2: Take Control - Set Your Goal

Don't just dream it Cora - make it happen!!!!!


Ok Mish i'm going to set my goals, i hope to have them completed over the next 3-6 months so here goes nothing!

• Ok first of all is a big one and i'm not sure if this will ever happen but, i want to be apart of Michelle's support team, everyone keeps asking me if i'm apart of it but i'm not :D so it is a big goal but who knows.
• Ladies that are in out SWSYD crew they are very important to me and i need to keep this goal ongoing.
• I want to be able to run for 20 minutes straight, i couldn't do this for round 1 cause of my injuries
• I want to be able to do challenges like, Tough Mudder, City to surf ( this one in my head i keep saying it's impossible) Screw you voice i'm going to do this!!!!!
• Maintain my weight loss that i have already achieved in round 1
• I'd want to be ready for Lean and Strong by the time this round officially starts.
• Fit in my old jeans
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Excuses and more excuses

Time for me to get real once again just because i have done this before doesn't mean that it's not relevant to me now so here it goes....
My number one excuse is i have no time yep, i use this all the time! this is a load of crap, if i have the time to sit down and watch tv for an hour then i time to get off my ass and go for a run or the gym. Like Mish said, make the time to go to the gym and make it part of my routine each day like Mish said "like brushing your teeth etc"
Another oldie but a goodie is, I'll start eating good next week, it's always next week, tomorrow or whenever. Cora, this is now and if you don't stick to what Michelle has taught you all your hard work will go down the drain you don't want that to happen do you?
a big one for me which i had to cut out in round one is alcohol, I always kept saying, oh Cora you Deserve that drink you have so much on your plate one won't hurt will it? HA! you are kidding yourself!one drink turns into 2,3 sometimes 4!! and what do you do when you get on the drink? you eat like it's your last bloody supper that's what you do! i have been a bit lax on my drinking since i hit my goal weight and i'm paying for it. It's time to get back to what you done before and forget that alcohol it's not your friend it's your enemy. No i know i'm a mum, a full time worker, wife, study and everything in between but that doesn't mean you can just sit around and eat crap food you signed up to be healthy for the rest of your life don't you remember that? When shit hits the fan you always throw your hands up in the air and give give up! you can't keep doing that.
Another good excuse you have Cora is the, i'm too tired to cook! now, you have done round 1, you know for a fact that cooking Michelle's recipes only take about 15 minutes stop kidding yourself.
One of my personal best,i'm allowed a "treat" you have done so well so go on.
Fear of failure or achieving my goals, for so long i have never really fitted in or had something i'm good at so my expectations are very high doing this as lot's of people see me as an inspiration so i have to keep up to that standard.
I feel so guilty going to the gym so this is another one - I need to spend time with my family and they are not willing to do exercise with me.
People telling me you are not fat Cora why are you still doing this, so i let myself go a bit.
So there you go guys it's out there for all of you to see.

Don't freak out newbies! Pre season help :)

Arvo everyone, I see that alot of you are very overwhelmed at the moment with getting used to 12wbt. I'm going to write some things here for you all to read and i hope that helps put your mind at lease.

With regards to Pre Season tasks, Mish will unlock 2 tasks a week before kick off on June 4th.

She doesn't unlock the menu plans or workout plans till week 1 kick off. So in the mean time Basically, unless you're pregnant or breastfeeding or a male member, you will be eating 1200 cals a day. That means about 300 calories per meal and 300 for snacks throughout the day. In Pre season i got Michelle's cookbook and also one of my all time fav Books is The Bikini Cookbook if you don't already have this book go grab it.

I love to use myfitness pal to count my calories! and you can add friends so that you keep on track.

Start to exercise, do some walking, hit the gym or just go for a run You will feel so much better doing this.

Use the forums! have a look around, post any questions you have on there as it is a wealth of information.

I know alot of you are asking me where the hell are the warm up challenges Cora? well they are in the forum, under 12WBT Program Discussion so head over there and have a read.

And last but not least, don't freak out guys!! the last thing i want you to feel is omg this is just too full on. Just take it one day at a time, i'm always here to help and everyone on the forum are super friendly so don't be afraid to ask loads of questions.

So peace out for now guys xxxx

Hot tips for all the newbies

Arvo all, i thought i would write down some tips for all of you that are new to the program i hope they are helpful!

• Trust what Mish has to say, no, really, sometimes you will think oh boy this Mish is one crazy woman -not everything that Michelle says is going to suit your lifesyle but try to adapt it.but in most instances you won't know unless you try what she says. Most of the time the impossible is actually possible.
• Be honest with yourself when doing the pre season tasks, there is not point in bullshitting  your way through them.If you find yourself stuggling with them, please don't hesitate to ask for help.
• Eat 1200 calories a day...do a big cook up on the weekends and freeze food. That way you won't be tempted to buy take away on the way home this was a BIG one for me in round 1 as i found  myself always making an excuse to buy takeaway.
• Plan you meals...know what you are eating for the day and when.
• Plan your exercise and JFDI...no more excuses right?
• You have so much support, i know alot of you are scared you will be alone on this journey, i will always be here to help, same with Michelle's facebook page, the forum & also all the wonderful support crew that you can always email they are always super friendly and willing to help a fellow 12wbt out :) Don't forget to join your local 12wbt team!! there is always something going on, with team workouts & events.
• don't forget, think program WORKS no doubt about it, you just need to stick with it!
• Remember, you are trying to create a healthier YOU cut out the crap talk, saying's like, i can't do this, i'm a failure! no such thing!!!
• Don't forget to take before and after shots guys!! trust me, even tho you might not want to face it you will be so happy when you look back and how far you have come when the 12 weeks is up :D
• Since we are in pre season i'm sure you all want to start eating healthy, so go out and get Michelle's Crunch time book or her No excuses cookbook i used them all the time during pre season. I also brought The Bikini Cookbook and i LOVE this book and gets used all the time in this household :)

Me? an inspiration?

Had a very emotional afternoon with mil at her birthday party. Her best friend Vi has Been following my story since starting the 12wbt now, I know we all don't know the ins and outs of our life stories but I have had my fair share of crap which I think I'll go more into in my blog. But she said she has never seen me like this, she has never seen me so happy, She said I have a fire in me a positive light, she said I'm an inspiration and she has joined the gym because of me and just cried and kept saying over and over to me, thank you. I'm so overwhelmed by this, I can't believe I have done something so positive I just feel so happy that I have made people change for the better. I just don't know what to think.